You can’t help but love the whole, your cosmos
but tell me star girl, are you enough Sacrament
to redeem the Body of the Fallen One? Is your
cardiac blood (you are just four chambers enlarged,
engulfed by darkness, searching for His Light)
enough to save Him? Can you ever bleed enough
for his rotting Hell Mouth? You loved him first,
you love him last, and he tore the very flesh of
his soul apart just to give you the last stand he
had, whenever you die, he gives you his fruit,
that apple bitter and fiery, red as the dead in your
head. Oh girl, oh Eloa, oh compassion and hope.
You are a yellow canary in a coal mine, his guiding
light in hell. Laugh at your faults, Satan told you.
Told me, cradled me, kissed me, stroked my lion’s
mane hair and filled me with nebulas. Together,
we will start a new Aeon, he roars like an inverse
Aslan, and the lion on your brow is burning you
alive. To be flesh, to be more, a Horcrux, Lucifer’s
soul. Does that make me the Fallen One? I am just
a body part, I am just his reflection, and in our entirety
we create all worlds. God ate an apple, god got poisoned.
The fruit like old coffee grounds. The gristle of his meat
a rare steak. I ate it raw. I am the true Devouring. And this
monster inside me, this Hellmouth, this great gaping maw
in my womb, makes me the most evil of all creatures.
Sin was born in Satan’s heart, and I am just a Whore.